Ode to an Open Book (11/ 1995)

Knowledge pours from your rim,
Ready for the thirsty to drink it up.
I've nearly swallowed my fill,
When the day is o'er.

Fairy Tales of wishes and wants,
Ladies in waiting full of woe,
Anguishing for Sir Lancelot
To deliver them from terrible ogres.

Heroes dashing, the gentle and brave,
Fighting duels for fair maidens.
Hoping to win a lovely bride,
And stay alive in the venture.

Science Fiction, glamour girls,
Lipstick tips and Dandelions.
Mathematics, Auto shop
Draw my mind into delicate fantasy.

But books are best when it's hot,
Refreshing, like a summer's night breeze.
So, put on your bathing suit and hop
Right into a book.

Broken Image

From the deep, I stand, Screaming
Yet - the face smiles, "All is well!"
My heart yearns for joy
But, a cold look keeps it black

Who I am, really, no one knows
She keeps me locked up, alone
I cry and fuss - longing to be free
Windows never break
Doors are ever strong

I was let out, ages ago
I spoke to a reflection in a crystal mirror
MISTAKE!
Shattered pieces still lay there
On the floor

I covered the broken image with
Sorrow
Leaving unhealed wounds
-Scars- in my haste
Accidents happen
Trembling hands, must be more
Careful

Even now you read
What I cannot speak
(You are one, not two)

Do you hear the pounding?
Heavy fists upon my cage?

One wants in
One wants out
And I am stuck
In the middle

Broken

Flashes violently crash inside my mind
Of death, of pain, of blood, yet blind
As if I can't control the violence
Appears so pure and awful, benevolent
Is it even something real
Though invisible, same as steel
Red, black, cut and slice,
The blood will fall, though cold as ice
Death will come - so soon to follow
Life remains - pale and hollow
Others fire can't penetrate the cold
Causing this young heart, to become old
Difficult to swallow, decrepit and weak
If the demon is you, Can you turn your cheek
God will watch, His hands are tied
Lucifer saddles his horses, ready for the ride
Left alone, in blackness to suffer
No angel, no loved one, no not any other
She's dead they scream, at long long last
Closing the door, slamming out the past

Sigh...

In the secret recesses of my mind

Lies a story of the abrasive kind

Where hope meets no hope

and they collide

Sitting here I do have hope

Yet, still, I sigh

Deep inside

     I still feel heavy

An' deeply burdened with pain

It runs so deep making me insane

I cannot shed one tear to cry

All I can do is sigh

Many marvelous works pass my way

Duplicate  - thank you's - red lips say

      Fear comes and goes like the tide

Poor me,

       I can only sigh

Beauty all around me bends

A plethora do I have of godly friends

Still my eyes stay dry

... an' I sigh

Where Can I Turn?

Peace speaks from quiet hours
Hunger and humility comfort
Through constant faithfulness
We gain the Heaven's support
The Father smiles down on us
He sends His Spirit with love
Know this all you who read this now
He lives and watches from above
He knows your heart your goals your aims
He listens to your prayers
He knows your names
You are His, and He is yours
With Him in your heart, you can pass
Heaven's doors
He gives you everything you've got
You know as well as I, it is a lot
He listens to your prayers
He knows your names
He knows your heart, you goals, your aims.
 His love for you will never end
  His love helps broken hearts to mend
After all is said and doe
We swill see His face
Together there, we will be in a warm embrace
All the cares of this world will be gone,
the pain too,
Our Heavenly Father will wrap you in his arms and whisper
"MY precious child, I love you
Welcome home."

Have You Ever...

Have you ever wanted something

but what, you weren't sure

Longing to be touched - 

But not until the cure

Have you longed for one to hold you

to love you through your tears

But, couldn't bring yourself to cry,

concealing all your fears

Do you ever dream of being happy

fulfilling all your dreams

Still, trembling, at the truth

and how devastating it seams

Is there a yearning deep inside and 

all you want is to understand?

Why someone has really hurt you

why its hard to take a stand

to look yourself in the eye

Without feeling pain and guilt

but not knowing why?

Do you avoid contact

with that person in the mirror

Forcing strong emotions away 

reinforcing loneliness and fear

Not on purpose, do you feel

You've sabotaged your own life

Like you and happiness are opposites

elusive and full of strife

Did you ever want someone to hold you

and never let you go

Someone to say, "I love you"

even with everything they know

Someone you can trust - to say you are beautiful

or just someone you can trust

To be looked like you're a daughter of God

not dirt, or an object of lust

When someone has something very 

important to you to say

Do you wish they'd just shut up and listen

or simply go away

Do you wanna be better

then you really think you are

To finally cut the umbilical chord

catch at last, you wishing star

Have you ever felt you were hopeless

living a horrific night terror

Hating all the injustice,

but knowing 

she deserves it, her in the mirror

Have you ever just had a whole lot 

of nothing to say

Do you wish you could just stop your heart

and it would all just go away?

New Eye Wear!!!

These are my new glasses!!! What do you think??

back burn

Man oh man!! I left my heating pad on all night long, and i was laying on top of it with my back.  It hurts so bad because i have first and second degree burns on my back in a space of about one square foot.  it is awful.  I can't believe that it did that! grrrrrr,.....  I suppose that is a lesson that i needed to learn.  I am just lucky it isn't worse I guess.
No fun!!!

Romans Chapter 8 verses 1 - 4

8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, ² because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you^[a] free from the law of sin and death. ³ For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,^[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.^[c] And so he condemned sin in the flesh,⁴ in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.

This is such a beautiful set of verses.  There is no condemnation, NO CONDEMNATION for those who are in Christ Jesus.  If you have confessed you are a sinner, and asked Jesus to be your personal Savior, and ask Him to come into your heart... you are under no condemnation.  He forgives your sins, past- present- future.  All is forgiven, and you are a new creature in Jesus Christ.  He will dwell in your heart, as He is in mine.  I feel wondrous and new.  God is soooo good .... all the time!!!!