Why - Originally sung by Rascal Flatts

Songwriters: Mathes, Robert; Shamblin, Allen

"You must have been in a place so dark, you couldn't see the light
Reaching for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh why, that's what I keep asking
Is there anything I could have said or done
Oh, I had no clue you were maskin'
A troubled soul, oh God only knows
What went wrong, and why
You would leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the cost
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun

Oh why, that's what I keep asking
Is there anything I could have said or done
Oh, I had no clue you were maskin'
A troubled soul, oh God only knows
What went wrong, and why
You would leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear, a mocking bird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

Oh why, there's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh but I still have one burning question
Who told you life
Wasn't worth the fight?

They were wrong
They lied
Now you're gone
And we cried

Cause its not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song

Your absolutely, beautiful song."


Dear Clint. You have had a great and wonderful influence on my life. I want you to know that i will always carry your humor love and support for others forever in my heart. Peace be with you my dear friend. I love you. Hugs to you.

Love Bri

Divorce Flowers

Warfare manipulates the sun

Two nations rise

Each to conquer the other

Poverty stretches our her arms

To cradle the children in fear and false protection

The parental carpet is pulled

Civil war breaks out

The government is weak but still in control

Good men are cast into exile

While law breakers rule the land

My heart dips her lips

Into the desperate waters of black human emotion

Waiting for the flowers of surrender to appear

To beam out hope and peace once more

Silence is heard in the riffles

As ten delicate hands elevate the flowers

Above the crowd between the two nations

"Forget-me-not" is whispered

Refusal collapses all hope

Hate and forgiveness become bitter enemies

Rain washes away few pains and sorrows

Leaving behind those crushed

Flowers.

To Jesus

Me singing "Only Hope" as sung by Mandie Moore.

Gates of your Hell

Here I am knocking on the Gates of your Hell

From an open window of my own.

No one is answering,

I guess it is just as well

Deep inside, I feel so alone.

Once I let in another,

Who told me of their pain

Together we were firm and strong

But, she has left me for the other

So here I am again.

She has died, so is my living wrong?

Here i am knocking on the Gates of your Hell

Through an open window from my own

I understand if you won't be answering,

It may be just as well

Perhaps I am meant to always be

ALONE.

For I the Lord do not give you the spirit of fear, but of power and love, and of a sound mind

old friend, new enemy

·         I saw you when you walked into the restaurant You were guilty but full of smiles

·         I heard you whisper to your guest, LIES self-pity in all the styles

·         I have no fear of you reading this, since reading was never to your liking

·         You live your lie so fast and swift, and you your hair you are still spiking

·         You saw me at the other place – you froze and shared and cried

·         I noticed it was the same old garbage you spewed forth as you lied

·         I do not hate you, as you go, in-fact I mostly wish you well

·         And after all that I can do and as far as I can tell

·         You are still living the same, (ahem) your same old hell

·         So this poem devoted to you; you never may ever read

·         But if there is anything I can do, find in someone else a need

·         For I can’t help you any more

·         On your knuckles I have banged close the hard oak door

·         And it’s okay if you wear a frown

·         ‘Cause you are now infamous I’ve got you all written down

·         Why did you have to show your face

·         I could be angry any place

·         But you have iced up the room

·         Be off with you upon your broom

·         Fly away into the fog.  Tail between legs you female dog

·         Never again to show yourself

·         With you is dearth, without you wealth

·         Ha ha ha! And a great big goodbye

·         With pants on fire and a needle in your eye

·         Fuck you and all your promises broken

·         You lied far beyond the simple token

·         My heart, my hope all the truth I have shared

·         Fell on deaf ears while my soul I bared

·         You did more than stomp on my desire

·         You dumped gasoline on my skin and lit me on fire

·         Then to put me out – so you said

·         You completely emirs my poor little head (in mud)

·         Why couldn’t you just leave me alone

·         Quit calling and texting me on the phone

·         Not until I wasn’t nice once did you say you were done

·         Surgery you said was worse yet asked 50 times worse than being attacked?

·         Yes! Of course! you were in pain

·         As you tore through my heart in horrific distain

·         I did not want to think that I gave you this power

·         But you can’t know the sweet without tasting the sour

·         Your betrayal was all up front and close but I pretended to not see it

·         Still ice woman you were the most

·         The most painful relationship I’ve, in a long time, had

·         Leading me to think I loved you? Shit, was I mad?

·         Confusion totally swept over me

·         Because you told me you were in need

·         The need to see someone crawling towards you

·         I became your servant not knowing what to do

·         So now you talk about me behind my back

·         I thought I’d care, but I just laugh

·         From the look in your eyes I can tell you’re giving me the power you try to pretend so well

·         I do not know what will become of this poem my dear

·         Our paths are forever parted, that much is clear

·         So, as you walk out the door, I will think of you one time more

·         And send a small blessing out your way

·         To, perhaps have you see, one great day

·         That you’re not the center of everything. You’re not the only one who can sing.

·         I will cross my toes and fingers too, in this little prayer for you

·         That one day you will see the light

·         No longer will you put up a fight

·         For fear of things that go bump in the night

·         But that you may truly be truly free

·         God bless you my once friend, Now, leave me be.

I have dealt with death before. From suicides to old age, but I have never had a friend murdered before.. It breaks my heart.  I know that ultimately God is incharge of life's beginnings and ends....but it is still hard.   I am so heart broken right now.  I went to a meeting, and it was wonderful and sad. I then went out to eat at the V.I. and spent some time with good people.  Life suddenly feels so fragile and I don't want to miss a moment.  I want all the people in my life to know how much they mean to me.  I want to tell people about Jesus.  I want to share my music and writings with more people because I believe that it talks to us all in different ways.  I don't want to be selfish with my time anymore.  I love so much, and feircely, and I want to let every person that i know how loved and valuable they are.  I don't have time for bitterness or dishonest exchanges any longer.  I only want truth in my life, and i want to be a bright light for those who are still searching. 
I love you God. Thank you for every breath i take. May I do your will always.
If no one told you they loved you today, I do.

Big hugs!!