I have dealt with death before. From suicides to old age, but I have never had a friend murdered before.. It breaks my heart.  I know that ultimately God is incharge of life's beginnings and ends....but it is still hard.   I am so heart broken right now.  I went to a meeting, and it was wonderful and sad. I then went out to eat at the V.I. and spent some time with good people.  Life suddenly feels so fragile and I don't want to miss a moment.  I want all the people in my life to know how much they mean to me.  I want to tell people about Jesus.  I want to share my music and writings with more people because I believe that it talks to us all in different ways.  I don't want to be selfish with my time anymore.  I love so much, and feircely, and I want to let every person that i know how loved and valuable they are.  I don't have time for bitterness or dishonest exchanges any longer.  I only want truth in my life, and i want to be a bright light for those who are still searching. 
I love you God. Thank you for every breath i take. May I do your will always.
If no one told you they loved you today, I do.

Big hugs!!