Wednesday, March 20, 2013

today SUCKS

Days like today make me sick! I feel like shit! I ache like shit! The weather outside is shitty! and the memories I am having are shitty too... 
i hate it so bad! 
Grrrrrrrr

Monday, March 18, 2013

Depersonalization

"The experience of depersonalization involves an alteration in the individual's sense of self so that the person feels unreal as if he or she were in a dream, like a machine, dead, self-estranged, or otherwise significantly changed from his or her normal state.  Sensory distrubances such as anethesias, parasthesias, alterations in sense of body size or body parts, macroscopia or microscopia or the experience of being outside of one's body and watching ones self from a distance or looking down from above are often present....
No single explanation accounts for the widespread nature of feelings of depersonalization, which are present in about 15 - 30% of all psychiatric patients irrespective of diagnosis.  Nevertheless, as documented earlier in this chapter, depersonalization syndromes are frequently associated with a history of sustained traumas....
Dizziness or fainting episodes are frequently associated with onset of depersonalization syndromes..."

from the book "Diagnosis & Treatment of Multiple Personality Disorder" - Frank W. Putnam

Somnambulism

Somnambulism

"Laboratory studies show that somnambulism occurs primarily during the first three hours of sleep and generally in stage 3 or 4 sleep.  Typically the person sits up in bed, then gets up and moves around.  Motor coordination is usually poor, and the person has an automation - like quality (ie., moves slowly and stiffly).  The person's eyes are open, and his or her facial expression is blank.  Complex behaviors such as dressing and eating have been observed in a laboratory settings.  These behaviors are usually out of context and indicate the person's lack of awareness of his or her surroundings.  Somnambulists are difficult to awaken and regain awareness gradually.  In most cases, the person is completely amnesic for the episode.  There is rarely more than one episode per night (Kales et al., 1980)."


taken from "Diagnosis & Treatment of Multiple Personality Disorder" by Frank W. Putnam

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

This is exciting!!!!


I didn’t know that there were so many options for growth in life.  I am happy to report that I will be recording my DAD song the first week in April.  This is a huge thing and I am so excited.  My little sister is working on the music to my SOMEDAY song.  These things are so exciting, and I love them! 
God is blessing me with things I didn’t even know that I could do.  This is wonderful for sure!!!  I have been presented with a great opportunity and I am not gonna let it pass me by.  I need to save up a hundred dollars for the blessed event.  This is gonna be so wonderful!
Get excited world, cause I’m comin’!!! 

beautiful! and inspiring!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=7knUFWY2P44&feature=endscreen

Thursday, March 7, 2013

just checking in...

i totally burned my hand on my curling iron.  . . .  . grrr i hate it when that happens.
i have a new room now with all the cleaning i have been doing. i have cleaned bins, shelves, drawers, desk top, dresser top, and vacuumed the floor and dusted and and and....

i have been manic for a while, going on for a week now, so last night my Shrink told me to take 1200 mg of seroquel.   So I did, and I still only got under three hours of sleep... this is crazy....

needless to say, i am still lik wo in my head

gotta run....

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

My Apologies

I did it ... I offered my  opinion when it wasn't asked, and it totally backfired in a way i didn't even think was possible.  It was met with strong opposition, and even a sniff of frustration.  I had a talk with God this morning, and together we (I) came to the conclusion that if someone is telling me about something, but they don't ask for my opinion, I should just keep my trap shut.
So what if I have experience, or time, under my belt where these things are concerned, if someone is just telling me - then i will listen and be supportive.
Now this won't always work.  If i see someone that really needs to be warned about something that could hurt them, i will try to do it with a little bit more tact and love.
Sorry to you who i hurt by thinking my "expertise" would be so good for you to hear.  I was prideful and put myself above the situation.
I am sorry for that.
I love ya, and don't want to cause anyone pain.
So, from here out, I will keep my mouth closed unless i am asked for my opinion.  I don't wanna be a dream crusher, that just sucks.
Love ya,

Bri